Follow your dreams!!!

A bird sitting in a tree is not afraid of the branch breaking because her trust is not in the branch, but in her own wings. - Unknown

Hot damn, I can't wipe the smile off my face! It's my last day working at UT, and in biochemistry research, and at 9-5 job! 20 years and 8 months to date...sure takes me long to make a move. But if first 6 years I was thankful for learning new skills and having a job in general in a country which language I didn't speak in a profession I wasn't properly trained for, and the following 5 years were the best out of my scientific career working in pharma industry on prostate cancer and HIV vaccine (closer to medicine I am versed in, well paid, and greatly appreciated by all around, with the utmost awesome supervisor), then 5 years in Stem Cell research with a fresh and curious boss and amazing real scientific break-through's, the last 5 years were a total drag from the get-go. The projects are boring out of the mind, the boss is a egocentric tyrant, the financial and growth intensives non-existent and 80% of the people are working 50% of the time, what always made me extremely uncomfortable (and sad that I often wasted my precious life away). 

It's over. I have no regrets, no fear, no anxiety. I am extremely happy for this step, for my future, and very grateful to my husband for supporting this move on all counts. I have to follow my calling, it's been way too long. I am put on this Earth to help people, one person at a time. I am to use my time, my knowledge, and my expertise wisely and fully, enjoy what I do, live every moment, and be happy - simply happy for myself, if you can imagine. I am doing something that simple - I am doing something just for me. It is going to be a great year. It is going to be amazing life - a whole life ahead. 

Sometimes my decisions take a long time to come, sometimes they are a snap, but I follow my heart, and when it feels right - it IS right. Took me years, over a decade, to pull the plug on my previous marriage, but when I did (7 years today officially) - I never looked back. Took me a split moment to sign up for a first race. first ultra, first 100 - couldn't be happier. Took me no time at all to move across the country and marry a guy I ran into on a trail - it wasn't always easy at first, but we made it work, and it was the most profound change I've made for my life. That's why I don't fear - on the opposite, super excited - about this decision. I KNOW it is going to be the best one yet, and now I have a team behind me.

And here is what my best friend sent me as a gift - a link from this blog.

one step.....

we all have heard

'every journey starts with the first step.'

and

'one step at a time.'

the list goes on.

this is true

tho

some of us

feel like we can't do 

whatever it is that lies before us

whatever life is asking of us

or

whatever it is that WE seek

because it feels too big. 

but the first step isn't a physical one

the first step starts within.

the first step on any journey

starts with our commitment.

commitment to ourselves.

when we commit to ourselves

it has to feel good.

if you have doubts about any decision

or any step

explore where these doubts are coming from.

if they truly come from within

your inner guidance saying, 'no way!'

then

of course listen!

but if the doubts are coming from:

'what would so and so think.'

'how would that make me look?'

'but, i feel obligated to....'

then QUESTION it.

are you living for you?

or

are you living for someone else?

any and all decisions we make

-tho some may not be easy-

will feel good or bad.

weeding thru our feelings

and

recognizing where the feeling is coming from

will help us be more confident in our decisions. 

then we can commit.

once we commit

we are unstoppable.

tho sometimes the thought of committing brings fear.

are we afraid of our own power?

are we afraid

that really

we are magnificent?!

we are incredible, limitless, manifesting beings

trapped in the belief of 'not good enough'

or

'i can't'.

people

we can do anything we commit to

but we first have to commit.

committing is the hard part.

focus on how you feel.

go deep

to the place within you

where YOU really exists.

this is a place within the physical body

yet it goes infinitely deep.

in this place

your inner sanctuary

see how you really feel

about anything.

go there to ask questions

to seek answers

to KNOW

without a doubt

from the depths of your BEing

that whatever journey you are about to embark on

feels right

to YOU!

and if it does?!!!

commit.

that is the first and hardest step on any adventure

of any kind.

whether it's physical. relational. emotional. work related. etc.... 

from this point forward

decide to commit to YOU.

do what feels right to YOU

always.

THIS is a GIANT and the most important first step

on the journey to the center of you.

the MOST important journey you will ever travel.

you can do it.

yes you can!

commit to you. always.

and find the life you are looking for

(it is also looking for you).