When something bad happens, you have three choices: let it define you, let it destroy you, or let it strengthen you.
The heart of the difference is not ability or even talent, but desire
The secret of life is that there is no secret of life. It's all hard work. Yet you still have to find the right works and be free to choose direction that is best for you.
The purpose of life is to discover and develop your gift. The meaning of life comes from sharing your gift with others. - David Viscott
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Tuesday, October 3
Now, "chosen out" is a fancy word they use to tell a kid he is not ready for next step yet. He did much better this time (it's his second shot at Focus), but was not very good at giving a feedback. I know it all sounds like a bunch of blabber, but basically at these seminars the Facilitator makes sure to get you uncomfortable, strip you to bare soul and make you seek answers from within, and get accountable for every action and word, and so on. Not just ride on.
Alex sounded very sad, and he was all wrapped in "letting us down". It is sad, indeed, as it just put us all 2 months back on a school schedule, although it is definitely not letting anybody down. The complication is that we want to take him out of school around New Year, what is far ahead of completion of Program, and this set back means he'll be even further behind where we'd (and school) like him to be before his home coming. It is surely not the end of the world. I tried to cheer him on and propose not to dwell on negative and work hard beginning today, not tomorrow (a.k.a. relentless forward motion).
We are meeting Realtor this week to discuss selling the house - for his home coming it is highly recommended (and a common sense) to not bring him back to the same environment. More headaches.
We are also scheduling a marriage counselor appointment in a near future. Here, I said it. At least we are working on it, not sitting on situation waiting for it to resolve itself. Kids are priority, no second thought here.
That been said, if you come visit here for running inspirations, there will be none for awhile. I'll get back to it when the other things move forward, although it doesn't mean I don't do anything or don't miss getting ready for a race or stopped loving running. I am just stepping back with excitement about it, as this is where I am now. I probably will forgo WS application so I can make decisions about 100M next year as it comes, not plan 6 months in advance - I have no idea where I am going to be next week in my life, yet along next year. I will keep my options open and will keep dreaming about running trails no less.
p.s. I do have something running-related. I passed 2600 miles last week, and it is a nice site - last year I was 30 miles short of 2500 for the whole year. So I guess, I am allowed to take time off and get back slowly:)