So, I need help. I need to let go. I WANT to let go! I am working on it. Slowly...
Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future, but from wanting to control it. (Kahlil Gibran)
So true. The issue of control and power. When all falls apart, you focus on a few things you can still control, that are still in your power, with all your might. Effort in - results out.
Then those used-to-be-controllable things slip away. At first you apply more effort to still catch some power over it, and it pays, then it requires more and more.
How many stages of depression there are? I won't read anymore lectures. I don't know.
There is a difference between giving up and knowing you have had enough.
There is a difference in living today, or in yesterday (and pretend it to be tomorrow).
Life ebbs and flows.
There are things I can not control, and there are things I choose not to control, because if I do, I will not be able to (at least pretend to) control some of those that are important to me right now.
I need help to let some things go.